It is really hard to change your mindset. My ex and I became really serious right at the beginning of our relationship. About 2 months in, we were talking about spending our lives together. We started house shopping about 6 months in, and bought a house together at the 8 month mark. We talked about having a family since the beginning, and were planning on having a baby within about a year of getting married. Changing the way I think about having a family is really hard. When I was visiting my sister, we went away skiing for a weekend. While walking the streets of the adorable ski town all I could notice were the little families. The young couples with their kids. I kept feeling a sense of loss. Like, I was almost there, and now I am not even close. I feel sad that I am so far from having that little family, that I had been planning. I feel like it is going to take a while for me to appreciate life for what it is right now. To see the positive side of being single. To totally understand that at this moment I can do anything and go anywhere that I want to. I feel like it is going to take a while for me to see a little family, and not wish it was my own. Do you ever feel this sense of loss?
*Sorry that my blog has been a bit manic lately... I am having some ups and downs, so you get to read about it...*