Thursday, February 24, 2011

The Profile

So I did it. I created an online profile for myself on one of the free dating sites.

I had been really hesitant to put my picture up for some reason, and had been feeling a bit weird about it. I guess it is part of feeling hesitant about putting myself out there. It feels strange to put my picture on the internet for people to judge. But, I guess that is what I have been doing while looking at the profiles online. And I guess that is what happens in almost any situation where you might find someone you want to date. People are judging whether they find one another attractive, whether they think that the other is desirable.

But I did it, I chose a couple of cute pictures of myself, and put them up.

And then I wrote a little bio. You would think that I would find it easy to do a bio, since I spend so much time blogging and talking about myself, but I didn't. It was hard to write something that was true, and didn't sound ridiculous.

I basically wrote that I am into the outdoors, that I cook & bake, and that I like to read and watch movies. Pretty generic. I don't really know what I am supposed to write to make it more appealing.

Actually, I have no idea what I am supposed to write at all.

Any suggestions? What should I be writing about?

And I guess the next step is messaging someone who I am drawn to. Which is also a bit scary. I am not sure what to say, or what to lead with.

I guess, alternately, I could just wait for someone to message me...

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Online Dating?

I'm thinking about signing up for an online dating site.

This isn't something that I have ever done before, and I am not really sure how I feel about it.

My ex and I broke up about six months ago, actually a little bit more than six months ago. And I am not too sure what happens now.

I have basically only had two boyfriends in my life (unless you count high school, and then we can add a couple more..). I went out with one guy for almost four years, all through university. We lived together for about a year and a half. There was a four month break between when I broke up with him, and when I started dating my ex-fiance. I went on a few dates between the two of them, but not many (and back then the term "date" sometimes meant "get drunk and go home with" "party with").

My university boyfriend and I met when we were both living in residence. We went out a few times with groups of people and eventually became a couple. My ex-fiance showed up in my office one day when I was working at a gym (he was a member) and asked me out. He had seen me around, and thought I was cute.

So, basically, I have no idea how to meet someone to date.

I think I might have to try the online thing.

I am not looking for anything serious right now, I will hopefully be moving in the next six months to go to law school, and am not interested in a long distance relationship. But I would like someone to have sex with on a regular basis spend some time with and snuggle up and watch movies with.

What are your thoughts? Have you done the online thing? How did it work for you?

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Skiing & Feeling Old?

I am attempting to blog from my phone right now. I am not sure how it is going to go. I am currently in the car with my sister and her boyfriend on our way back from a ski weekend. 

I am on vacation right now, visiting my sister and her boyfriend. We went away for the weekend to a ski town with a few of her friends, as well as a childhood friend of ours. 

It has been pretty great. 

It was really fun to get together with our old friend for a weekend. We don't spend nearly enough time together since we all live in different parts of the country. We grew up together (our parents are still friends) and have known each other for 20 years. The three of us had a great time. It is amazing how easily you fit back together with old friends. 

After he left, we spent some more time with some of my sisters friends. It was a bunch of fun, for the most part. My sister is younger than I am, and her friends who were with us this weekend aren younger than her. So I did spend a bit of time feeling a bit old. Even though the age difference is only about 5 years, I am in a much different place than they are. 

It is something that I will have to get used to, if I am going to be going to law school in the fall. About 75% of the class will likely be about 5 years younger than me. 

What makes you feel old? Do you mind? 

Friday, February 18, 2011

Rough week...

I think the hardest part about being single, is not being anyone's most important person. Not having that one person who is there for you no matter what. Who you can call in the middle of a tough day at work, or in the middle of a scary episode of criminal minds, or when you don't quite know where you are, and are trying to find a meeting.

Not having that one person who is there for you. Who calls in the middle of the afternoon to see if you want to have pancakes for supper. Or if you want to stay home on Friday and watch Dexter, instead of going to that house party that you were invited to, by the people who you don't really like.

I think that is the hardest part of being single.

Since my LSAT studying is complete, and I am almost finished applying to law schools, my life is becoming clearer. I don't have anything to focus on, and am starting to realize what my life really looks like right now.

And it is starting to feel a bit empty. A bit lonely.

I am leaving to go on vacation this morning, I am going out west to visit my sister for a week. I am excited to get away, and take some time off from work. It will be nice to get away from my life right now, and spend some time with family.

Hopefully this feeling that I have been having this week will subside.

Do you miss having that one person? Cheer me up, what do you love about being single?

Sunday, February 13, 2011

The LSAT. Round 2.

I feel like I haven't blogged in weeks! I spent the last five weeks working my behind off studying for the LSAT. I basically stayed in every weekend, and spent most of my free time studying (or at least sitting in my apartment, thinking about studying).

Because I took the Kaplan course, I feel like I had a lot more guidance, and was able to be really strategic about my studying. I spent a lot of time watching the online classes, and tutorials. I kind of feel like I should have spent more time doing timed practice, but I think that all of the theory that I learned helped a lot.

The test went well. Or at least I think that it went well. It is really hard to tell with that many multiple choice. I did struggle a bit with the logic games (which really annoyed me, since on my timed practices I was getting 21 or 22 correct...). But hopefully my Logic Reasoning will make up for it.

I am going to send off applications to the final two schools that I am applying to this week. And then it is just a waiting game!

How have you all been? I have missed the blogger world!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Giveaway Winner

The winner of the $25 for CNS Stores is amy!

Hooray! The random number generator spit out number 5 (which was amy whether you count from the top or the bottom).


Friday, February 4, 2011

What I didn't count on

Don't forget about the giveaway that is going on! Hurry up & enter here. You have until February 6th at 6pm EST. Huzzah!

Throughout the fall, I was waiting for my unwedding day. I was waiting for the day to come and go, so that I could get going with my life. In the months leading up to that day, I felt like once it came and went I would breathe a sigh of relief. I would put it behind me. I would stop having to tell people that I wasn't getting married. I wouldn't be getting close to the big day. I wouldn't have to tell anyone that I wasn't engaged.

What I didn't really think about what the months after. January. What would happen then.

Well, it turns out, that a lot happens.

I received a survey from the travel agency that we had booked our honeymoon with. It was a welcome home survey, asking how our trip was, wondering about the cruise ship, and welcoming us home. Hilariously, it had actually been forwarded from my old address to my new one by CanadaPost, since my mail forwarding hasn't run out. The letter inside was addressed to both me & my ex.

I also got an email from a local photographer. Prior to the wedding, I had been thinking about doing a boudoir wedding shoot, as a wedding gift to my ex. Leading up to the wedding, I decided on a different gift for him (which I had already purchased) and decided not to go with the photos. I did, however, tell the photographer that I might be interested in doing a shoot shortly after the wedding. So, being the great business woman that she is, she contacted me a month after when the wedding should have been, gushing her congratulations and wondering if I wanted to do a shoot for my new husband.

(These are not my feet.)

In addition to those two lovely situations, I received an email from a home equity loan agency looking to loan "us" money (for the home I no longer own), an email from an online vendor that we used, looking for review, and an email from the local wedding show company letting me know about their "new family" photoshoot packages.

This week at work, I also had a telephone meeting with a client in which she asked me how my wedding was, and was wondering when my name change was going to happen on my emails.

So yeah. I didn't count on this stuff.

But, life goes on. With all of the things that happened this month, I only freaked a couple of times. Sure, I teared up after getting off the phone with my client, but I pulled myself together, and continued with my work day. (Ok, there might have been a mini foot stomping incident in a coworkers office that accompanied the tearing up, but after that I got on with my work day).

How was your January?

PS. I am so sorry about going MIA. I promise that once this crazy LSAT thing is done with, I will sit down and read everything you all have written in the last month. I rewrite on February 12, so I will catch up with you all next weekend. I miss all of you a lot!